It's not a cry you can hear at night, it's not somebody who's seen the light...

My sister and her family are leaving and I'm totally bummed because they're basically my favourite everything.

I thought I would get some things done today after they left because I wouldn't have as many people occupying my time. But I woke up this morning shaky and sick. My hands always shake, but they're doing so visibly. And my kneecaps are shaking. Which is a really weird feeling. I can't tell if it's bloodsugar or extreme tiredness or something else. But basically blah to the extreme.

And I am not pleased to see more more more shaking in Christchurch as well. Dammit.

It's already 2012 where I live. Here in Montana it's still 2011, but only for a few more hours.

These last few days with my family have been perfect. Yesterday I bought sheet music for Malik and we wandered around, talking. I played games with them all. Kelly keeps asking me to tell stories because apparently I'm hilarious. My aunt is here too, which is awesome. And oh oh, Malik had to do this project on 12 Angry Men for his English class. So he wrote, played and recorded a song in like an hour. And it was awesome. So incredibly creative, it's ridiculous.

I can't wait for 2011 to get the heck out. Here's to 2012 not consisting of jumping from one natural disaster to the next, combined with personal disasters that never seem to end. But really, I wouldn't change these last few days for anything. If 2011 always ended this way, I would slog through it again and again.

My family is amazing.

I was in the crappiest mood (hormones lol) and then suddenly I'm all excited and happy. Thanks a lot, body. You're lovely.

BUT I am going to learn to crochet tomorrow! So I can make scarves! I so want a Doctor Who scarf homg. And we're going shopping for wool so my mother can make me some potholders and dish cloths for our LFoD kitchen. Also I am looking at the easy patterns for stained glass so I can start more projects. I have this gorgeous triple shamrock pattern I will make for me, but I am going to make that one at the class. I can do the easy ones in the basement. My mother set up a workshop because she's adorable. We're also looking for presents for the niece and nephews as well.

And then my sister and her family get here on Thursday. And on Friday I might go to Sherlock Holmes 2 with Maliky and Travis which yayyyy! I am so excited :D

<3

1. My family is the most awesome thing in the world.

2. Still waiting on my program to confirm my results to the loan people so I can get my second semester loan. If this is refused, this entire year is basically a wash. And it's 7 weeks til the end of term (break weeks not included) So. That sucks. But-

3. My family is still the most awesome thing in the world.

4. I now have all The Kills albums! :D

5. Simon is wonderful for cheering me up.

6. My family is seriously the most awesome thing in the world.

If I haven't mentioned lately how much my mother rocks then here: my mother is pure awesome.

So I've been looking for birthday cards for you and haven't found the right one, so I gave up and decided I'd just confirm what I would have told you in the card-- that as long as you have the time at Christmas to come home, we will figure out how to get you here. If you have any $ to throw into the hat, that would be good, but your birthday/Christmas present will be whatever is needed to make up the difference for the ticket. If that's ok with you.

Uh. YEAH THAT'S OKAY WITH ME! Yay, Christmas with my family! I haven't had a Christmas that felt like Christmas since 2003. It's the one time of year I want snow and not summertime. And turkey and my mother's stuffing instead of a barbecue. Though Lewi's dad did do AWESOME and epic barbecues which always tasted of amazing, they still never felt right. Last year was good, but I still missed being in Montana.

And my sister and her family might be there too and just <3<3<3. This is what I needed right now when I feel sick and blah and hurgh. Perfect.

Let's see if I have more luck doing this meme. Stolen from Jill!

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

I did my family for this part, since I know people who read this who get absolute anxiety attacks over these particular memes and I won't do that to them. Only three people reading these are on here, one is my sister and the other two I live with. If you are reading this at ALL, I love you!

Beware. I am totally honest and mushy when it comes to how I feel about people (well 9 out of 10) because I am part Care Bear. And sometimes it makes people go O_O.

( My Ten Things )

I was feeling down today (LONG story) so I decided to do something constructive to take the feeling away (social work training, oy) so I wanted to make a post of all the photos of people and places and things that mean something to me. And when I started to plan it, I realised just how long it would be if I put everyone into it. And that made me feel so amazing, you have no idea...

I did it anyway deciding I would only use photos I have taken myself (or by my family since I wasn't at the reunion to take those and I didn't take the ones of me as a kid, but you get the point!) to cut down on spamming random Hugh Jackman pictures ;). Not everyone that should be here is including my friends in Australia. Woot, Peter, Laura and Ness, I have no (not blurry) photos of you!! And there are other friends who aren't on here, but be that as it may, here it is. Some of my happy things.

( To me you are perfect )

Yesterday I nearly cut my finger off cutting up tomatoes for a salad. And today my nephew, sister and the family flew away from me :( TWO BIG FROWNS! And Jayann went back to Missoula but hopefully she is coming back next week yayyyy!

BUT I went out to lunch with my mommy, and tonight we are having tacos (I am not allowed to cut tomatoes), there's a storm coming (STORMS YAY) and I bought my NZ housemates (and friends) Twinkies so they could try them and be like the people in the films. Eating gross things. I also got Butterfingers. I have a list. It makes me LOL silently.

I am surrounded by people singing Lady Gaga. Jayann and Malik are sorting through Magic Cards and singing while I burn CDs. It's hilarious. And my little brother came to visit last night which was awesome. Boy (said little brother) is a lot of fun and we watched Dylan Moran and laughed. It made me happy :D

Lymene and Kelly are watching a documentary about the Earth and their commentary on the animals is hilarious. "I don't like him, he's ugly!" "My, what big eyes you have." "That is disgusting, Kelly. Yeah, but fish can't help it..." "Bam HE ATE YOU HAHAHA!" They're pretty in to it!

I have been reading all these things about the Celtic Morrigan because I need to complete her bio for FG. I love Celtic mythology. It's all turning into animals and screaming ghosts and blood blood blood. Awesome.

Jayann might come to New Zealand in January I hope I hope I hope because we would have SO much fun. She's brilliant. I love having a friend I can be around after a year of being on the other side of the planet and when I am here it's like we weren't apart at all.

And she makes me like by saying things like "This is a brine shaman. He makes pickles" and "wrath of rats, ooooh!" about her magic cards.

Oh and quoting Mean Girls with my nephew is AWESOME.

I am in the US. My family is surrounding me and it's terribly amusing. I also just slept from 9 pm until 3pm the next day. Seriously. 21 hours travelling. Goodness me.

I'll post my travelling stuff later because it's almost time for dinner and there's steak and salmon and corn and squealing nieces.

And my nephew is the coolest person in the world. We just spent an hour talking about Rent (NO SERIOUSLY OH MY GOD IT'S THE BEST THING EVER OH MY GOD YES <---Direct quote from Malik) and later we might watch Rhys Darby or Dylan Moran. Because I need to convert him.

>:D